woa to feel as if its all sorted is a good thing to feel. its quite perfect how we just seem to overcome things, heads can straighten out and plans can be rearanged and really its ok because the sun will most likely rise in the morning and i'll get up in the morning and look in the mirror and be good. time is just a complete head fuck really.
but yes i feel refreshed and i honestly cant wait for everything. i can wait, but i will be welcoming it all. its all ok once you realise change needs to happen and you stop clinging on to whats been - i dont think whats been is something that should be clung onto at all.
it is most definately the simplest things that make everything and fuck the rest. fuck fuck fuck the rest. i am so lucky to know that another human being knows me and i know them. and to meet more people who i will truly know and experience with
we forget that we dont need to accept our lives as they are and the people in them. they can fuck off. hahaha! the realisation that you just dont have to deal with people you dont want to deal with.
before college i will:
customise all the clothes i've been wanting to customise for the past year
make cushions
draw, sketch, paint, collect ideas
record everything in my many books
read 'to kill a mocking bird', '1984', 'the bell jar' again and spend hours on the beach with W.H Davies, plath, e.e cummings and T.S Elliot
continue to dance
always make an effort to get dressed
skinny dip
not think things over, be spontaneous
be young
forget what im 'supposed' to do
learn all the grade 8 piano scales
start the band
get to know you better
start the new with a refreshed head and an open heart
lawl....