12 // 8

was gonna go out tonight to this gig and goth it up large in stockings, body con black stretch skirt, drapy black top, leather jket, purple lipstick and serious smokey eye. i looked good man. but its not worth it. it would of totally been dissapointing and my best friend totally doesnt want to go so i would of had to literally drag her by her short bobby locks - or just tug at her nose - its big enough OHHHHH. so in conclusion it would of been a bit of a drag
i miss ry i miss ry. :'(. but anyway, gig next week and party @ reeves so cant really complain!
plan B is to practise the piano and bike down to reeves to chill and watch french film Dans Paris. surely Romain Duris and Louis Garrell are a good substitute for tonight? they definately are.
here's some wonderful piktas of me in a 'i love pug's' top that ry got me for christmas. hahaha @ the apostrophe. also my stockings cos i full on love them, my eye and me burying me face in my hands cos its just so damn cool..... NAAAT
went to work today for first time. office jobs - kill me now. im never doing that. unfortunately i think i'm going back tommorow. aaargh. i need money doh so yano.. kkz ramblin ova n out bbz.
HOGAN COME HOME. yay only 2 more days then im gonna snog u stupid <33

''if i don't write to empty my mind i go mad'' - lord byron

developed film

summers evenin spent mooching round crofton with ryan hogan
oneof my favourite things

how was it for you?

me 2 weeks ago i think. felt like being vain and uploading yet more photos of me.
today (sunday the 08 august) has been totally lovely and pleasant. sundays almost always are but this was especially
last night was gorge, beth reeve n joe over and i cooked this propa nice chilli and we ate that with cheese n bread in the candlelight and it was so noice. then reeve and i put delorean (my absolute faves atm - sound of the summer completely) on full blast and danced with full stomachs in the kitchen then took the mutha outside and danced on the soakin grass. felt so good. then we indulged in icecream under the stars then danced some more.
talked till some stupid hour with reeve about everything and anything. reminded of how ridiculously lucky i am to have someone i can just talk to and they understand everything.
had some kin weird ass dream but it was also beautiful because it was so vivid. sometimes feelings in dreams are so much more wonderful and stronger than in real life. i was walkindown this alley way after this party and this lad i know from school who is just utterly beautiful was leaning against the wall and he smiled and stared right at me and my stomach just fizzed and i felt faint for a split second. when i woke up i wished i could still feel it. im not even sure i've felt that in reality. i must of done just a long time ago
i went to my piano teacher marriannes at 11.00 and we sat in the kitchen for about half an hour suppin coffee and putting the world to rights. then we played brahms for an hour and then i came home and started on my room re aranging
joe and i went for a walk. ate some lamb for sunday dinner. finished off my room and now all my candels are lit and the lavender i just cut from the garden smells diiivinee. now i so sleeEEeeeepY
reckon i might post some photos of my belongings/room soonish.maybez

finally currently listening to debussy // will smith
hahah how good would a debussyVs will smith remix be. or maybez not
need sleep. up early to go and see my nanna, missed her

never been a big fan of things but i'm growing so fond of you

''I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at night…”

- sylvia plath

late evenin walk

camping survival kit
watercolors, boater + sunnies,
nineteen eighty four by george orwell, sketchbooks, sylvi plath collected poems, camera

tuesday 27th july

23.17pm currently thinking 'my blog is actually quite shit and not a true reflection of myself. if i wasnt myself and i read parts of this blog i would think i was a dick. this needs sortin art asap'