i've fallen in love with you
but you don't exist

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this is if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

Leisure by William Henry Davies

videos i took this evening. i love late spring evening, dusk seems so peaceful, restful and just clear. we walked down to the park area and sussed out some locations for our future short horror films haha. i dont know if it will ever happen but i hope it does. it would be the perfect location. i also filmed a black cat under a lamp light. srsly scary. i definately think some cats are the devil incarnate... im sure i saw lucifer when i looked into its eyes hahaha

Come, let us find a cottage, love,
That's green for half a mile around;
To laugh at every grumbling bee,
Whose sweetest blossom's not yet found.
Where many a bird shall sing for you,
And in your garden build its nest:
They'll sing for you as though their eggs
Were lying in your breast,
My love--
Were lying warm in your soft breast.

'Tis strange how men find time to hate,
When life is all too short for love;
But we, away from our own kind,
A different life can live and prove.
And early on a summer's morn,
As I go walking out with you,
We'll help the sun with our warm breath
To clear away the dew,
My love,
To clear away the morning dew.

things i like... my velvet dress

got this dress at christmas from a used clothes store, for the hefty some of £32! nah i couldnt believe it either. i need an occasion to wear this but unfortunately i dont go to balls regulary. har har
pure loveeeeeeee for it. might wear it at halloween and dress up as a vampiress. sxi as fck

bascily ma gurl reeve came round today and we've done about 1 n half hours of spanish revision for our mighty gcse spanish aural exam tomoz. i should probs do more...
i love it when she comes round. we usually just piss about talking about nothing, listening to music., laughin at hilarious videos, falling over, dancing, drinking endless amounts of tea (i no right? totally cool, i didnt mean tea in that 'oo im cool i drink tea way' we just love tea) dressing up, reading shit magazine articles. bein funneh as fck. but i love her. simple as mayteee

coupla picktars from last night. beaut

blouse oxfam, top h&m, tights h&m, shorts topshop
fascinatingggggggz

necklaces are from carboot, fake fur is vintage, dress is old one of my mums, bag from charity shop

i dont care what no-body says no, im gonna be her lover
always mad and usually drunk, but i love her like no other

if i look tired, its because im tired. im missing an 18th house party tonight to do kinnn spanish revision. SPANISH REVISION. ON A FRIDAY NIGHT. i fucking loooooooove gcses
but i've got to be mature n all that. basicly, its my own fault. if i'd come straight in from school and done some i could of gone out. but i didnt. i need help, o,r bernards watch.

i cant believe an entire week has been and gone. i dont even know what happened on each day, they've just kind of merged into one. and then i was walking off the bus down oakenshaw lane and i thought bloody ell its friday. if the next 2 weeks go this quickly i dont know what i'll do. 2 and a half weeks left of school. 2 and a half weeks. i dont know how i feel about it. its very confusing times. im obviously gutted but i cant be sad because its been so exquistely amazing. honestly, best 5 years. i adore school. i'll have to have a mourning period hahahaaha.

at the moment im in my room, on my bed. listening to dancey dancey tunes, a nice reminder that i should be out partyinggg. wham apparently.
so im gonna do an hour and abit of this shitty espanol, do some cello and watch a film in a depressed state. luvin lyf 2k10.

this is i ,, taken on a disposable

i fought it for a while but now i simply cant -MASSIVE GIRL CRUSH ON LARA
her figure. mine. now

moi

few shots taken today, bloc party lyrics on my arm, my dressing table, my wardrobe, my hand (totally cool yah) my window sill and bedside table, stuff on my bedside table

people i like....

nay, love. im in love with kele okereke. always

i just practicly cried in fear whilst looking through my final art book work. it has to be given in sometime this week and my teacher NEVER tells me what grade its looking like.
and i just thought, shitting hell, what if its not an A* ?
i think its definately an A. but i want a fucking A*, so,so , so much
it has to be an A* please please pleasee e e eeee.

this weeks horoscope

i usually read my horoscope every week depending on if i read the magazine its often in. i never take alot of notice of them, the minuet i've finished reading its forgotten but this weeks seemed to really strike a chord. I dont know, it just seemed to fit perfectly with a situation right now.

is fortune really smiling on you now? Or are you just deluded about a possible prospect? Optimisim isnt always justified. Sometimes, we need to heed lifes warnings and remember that things dont always work out well. You, though, are already being careful. You're not pursuing pie in the sky. You're aiming for a cake that in theory at least, you can both have...and eat. So, will theory turn to practice? Yes, if you remain wise and determined. One essential ingredient in your recipe has yet to turn up. This week, you'll see a way to attain it. When fortune seems to be smiling on you, smile back.

video i took of seth bennet playing accoustic bass at the hop in wakefield on wednesday night
pretty lovely stuff.


this is also a video i took of the elysian string quartet, seth supported them at the hop. they play contemporary string music, very beautiful new sounds. its very rhythmic, the viola player often drummed on his instrument or plucked it in a percussive way. it sounded minttt. some of the harmonies in the chords when they all played together were just magnificent. i dont think alot beats a string quartet really. they're also a very good looking bunch.

people i like....

louis spence - pineapple dance studios

'i think i've ripped my spine'
'i have drums in my head, its a form of epilepsy'

some photos i took on a disposable a coupla months ago. at the moment im drinking water and eating chocolate - beaut combo, listening to Heart, and wasting time blogging when i should be doing english essays. i've written a little but its just not good enough. so i think i'll say bye

'in order to be irreplaceable one must always be different ' coco chanel

thought i might aswell make some 'outfit' posts...i always find them quite interesting on other blogs. depends if i can be bothered to take a picture every time i dress up to go out hahaa.
but anway, this was me last saturday night when we went out for laurens 18th. old leather jacket, new summer dress. me looking demonic in my room
i love that dress alot. looking forward to wearing it with my boater hat in ze summma

i've pondered about this and i think that sadly its quite true. all the othe ones come after the ignore bit.
kind of says alot about stupid girls dosen't it. im probably one of them

wish you were here

LETS BUY HAPPINESS!

thankyou 6music for yet another introduction to yet another beautiful new band

why cant bois look/dress like this anymore?
oh actually, when i was at the easter fair the other week on a ride, waiting for it to set off, a group of gypsy boys went onto the dodgems and one of them looked exactly like this. and he was yum. tight black teeshirt, slicked back black hair, razor sharp cheekbones. should of been in grease

shots from last ni

hilarious timezzz. it was a bit of a dissapointment but as predicted hoge and i had a riiiight laugh. love him long timexxx

i feel sick and my face decided to set itself on fire temperature wise. bloody ace. i hope its not a total disaster, hoge and i will probs get a laugh out of it anywayz.

i've got a baaad feeling about this. i think im going to be dissapointed probably sick with ridiculous nerves, embarrased. i'll probably wish i never went. but oh wth might as well.

''one look at you, and heavens on fire''

waiting for someone to love me, someone to kiss me. im 15 years old and i feel like its already too late to live - ''the graveyard girl''

heard on 6music today. new summery, nostalgic, lustful guitar heaven to add to the radio dept and my bloody valentine. love.

people i like....

sophie dahl.
spesh 'the delicious miss dahl'
a combination, rather embarrasingly, of most things i love in life. gorge food, literature, musings and chintzy lovely flowers in pots.
yes its edging on the slightly pretenious and theres moments where you just want to laugh at how silleh it is, but she pulls it off and its lovely. and she is vair beautiful and sure of herself and even though i bet the piss gets ripped out of her for it shes still doing it because she wants to and admire her alot. infact, i hope when im nearing 30 i have a little cottage filled with vases stuffed with wild flowers and roses, bunting strung up in my small patio garden, and fridge crammed with delicious food and a little box filled with all my favourite recipies neatly written up. it might sound sad but so whaaaaaaaa. it also sounds rather blissful

god, i think i really want this to happen. and because i really want this to happen, i know it probably wont hahhaahahaahahahah. such is life.

Baby baby baby I don't want to
Ever give you the wrong idea
Call me up we'll hang out I'm down for whatever
Tell me am I making myself clear?
Love can be a meaningless emotion
Pretty words that we're obliged say
Rest assured I wont ask for your complete devotion
Lets not let our hearts get in the way

Whooaaaa finally, the weight is off our shoulders
Play for keeps until the night is over oooh

Now you know of my cruel intentions
I can play a hard game I'll admit
So it goes, we both know
You're worthy of my affection
You're not the one who I'll spend my life with

Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever

Whooaaaa finally, the weight is off our shoulders
Play for keeps until the night is over oooh

Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever


Call me up, we'll hang out
I'm down for whatever
Untill the night is over

this song totally fits a sit i was in earlier in the week.
i should of resited him these lyrics. i would now,
it would be fuckin hilarious but i dont think he'd get itlol

this door is always open, this door is always open, no-one has the guts to shut us out

sometimes i find pictures that i want to keep to refer to for ideas when i get some form of residence. im thinking, music room/writing room/personal den

I miss the city I love but I've been having an affair with LA and new york, dundee and doncaster if I may dare,

Of course I do
Of course I do
but i was ment for this place and
I was ment for you

shit what do you do when you know something could be really great between two people, like some 'connection' thats just waiting to happen. and you just want to see. but you've never spoken to them ever. all you've done is exchange stares. and you feel like its a missed opportunity. and whenever you're around them you just want to grab their face and kiss their lips and just look at them forever and always. but you dont know them. you've just been in his class for 2 years, sat opposite him for 2 years. and said 'olive oil' and 'excuse me' and 'alright' and exchanged stares. and sometimes you just wish you could spend the afternoon with him, and see what hes really like

just something else material i desperately want

people i like....

sxi bois with good cheekbones, alluring eyes, smoke and lush lips

i havent blogged in a while. heres some vain posy rosey photos i took of myself last night whilst trying to decide what to wear to a gig later this weeeeek. soz, its a guilty pleasure of mine.
the holidays are going ok, although i dont have time or room to arrange to do anything because every hour should be taken up with doing my monstrous amount of work, but of course it isnt. like now, i could be doing even more spanish rev. but im not. boo hoo.
mostly ive just been hangin wiv ma gurl reeve. went round to hers on friday, talked for about 3 hours and ended up going to bed at about half 3. woke up at about half 11, ate sugar puffs and then the ice cream man came so we had a 99 with sauce and hundreds and thousands for brekkie. and i lo ooove i her i dooooooooo.
went out on saturday night for my brothers girlfriends 18th. was good mannn, although town is kinda shit. looking forward to being 18 so i can go to some decent bars. i got into a couple but yano, its still rebbish. but one of the lovely pros of the night was havin a good ole chin wag with my boii danny, and we seem to becoming closer friends so thats alll dandy. oh m gee listening to 'cool' by gwen stefani. one of the first singles i bought. mmmhm the days of been 13. its beaut